To my husband

I feel an immense amount of guilt that I had developed feelings for another man who happened to have power over me. He tore up the idea that I was not already perfect the way that I am. You accept me for who and what I am and all my flaws and happiness. You pick me up off the cold floor where I’ve been laying on and feed me with love happiness and desire. I went searching for a more intense love a more “romantic” thinking that being objectified was what I really wanted. The being attractive and using it to my advantage would get me places, “good places”. It was the opposite of that I ended up being put in a situation where it was either have sex with my boss to keep my job or leave and have no money i already knew we were not doing that well considering you had just left your job. But I still chose us.

Sometime has gone by and you found a job that appreciates you now and a wife that loves you even more because despite my eyes that wandered you feel so strongly about us and how unlike myself I was lately. you saw past the I’m ok and told me. “I could care less about that because that man does not have shit on me” Which is 100% true, after this emotional turmoil you still hold me so delicately, you still care for me because I did the right thing for us which was quit on the spot and worry about the fallout (having no money) later. I felt down and we’re going to the store today your idea :) this makes me feel like you know me better than anyone else. I want to apologize to you because you deserve a wife who invests time in you the same way. I’ve learned that the grass is not greener on the other side. We are stronger because of this experience and I couldn’t care less about that man anymore 2 months have gone by and I’m not letting him take away any of my energy time or patience. I’ve waited long enough I’m getting up I’m becoming the best version of myself for your baby you deserve it. I will give it to you 🥹💕