Unable to comprehend having sex after partner had addiction

My girlfriend and I are doing good after I initially found out about her addiction. We’re a lesbian couple, and I thought we would be safe from that kind of thing. Turns out we weren’t.

But I’ll give credit where credit is due. She’s been clean since I first confronted her about it and has been seeing a therapist, journaling, and is getting back to her old self.

It’s been a couple months now, and I can feel a small part of myself wanting to be physically intimate again. But every time I think about it deeply, all I can see was the stuff she was making, watching, and reading. It plays like a slideshow over and over and I just can’t get past it.

I know healing is a long process, but I already have issues when it comes to overthinking and spiraling. How on earth are we supposed to go back to how we were?

Looking for tips and advice, I really just want my old sex life back.