Blog Post 1 - 12/1/25

I’ve been thinking about how to begin writing this for a long time. And to be honest, I still don’t.

I still don’t know how to put words to these things, things I’ve never experienced in my entire life, that wracked my worldview, my beliefs, and everything that I think and feel about the world around me. Things that, to my ears, sound like the manic rambles of a ragged man on a street corner about speculation, mystery, and conjuring answers where there are absolutely none.

None.

That’s the ground level. Let’s start from there.

Hey there. For the time that I’m here on the Internet, you can call me Anon, Dingus, by my reddit username, or whatever you wish. Though, for now, the last thing that I want here is my real name and identity. For what it’s worth, I feel like I need to keep my identity a secret for now. Not that my close friends or family would be surprised by this information, but this is the cleanest way to do this, for now. It may come to pass that I may get the chance to go more public with this later, but for now, there’s a part of me that is terrified of what will happen to my reputation if this hits big and wide.

Frankly, people like Greer, Elizondo, Corbell and just about everyone widely circulated in this environment make me sick to my stomach. I don’t care to elaborate, IYKYK. It’s just that the last thing I want to do is become another grifter, another person who’s paid to string people along and keep the operation going.

I’m not interested in any of that.

I just want to know what the hell happened to me.

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To keep a long story short for now, I’ve seen these things with my own eyes, and one of them attacked me, physically.

 I thought I was going to die, and every day since that day I’ve been wondering how and why I'm still alive.

Recently, we’ve come upon, and have passed, the one-year anniversary of the November Drone Incident. At least, that’s what I call it for myself, and how I call it when communicating with friends. It came, it passed, and left everything behind in the dust like a storm cloud drifting by, For many people, it was a time of confusion, questions and eventually mundane dismissal. For others, it was a time of grave danger and grave excitement.

For me, it was just Thanksgiving. At least, at first.

Up until then, I was going through what I can only really describe as a Christian Deconstruction. I had an incredible encounter with Alan Watt’s lectures, which promptly began making waves and changes in my life. Later, after meeting my girlfriend (Just had our anniversary yesterday, actually. Very happy, I’m very grateful for her in my life. She has been with me through ALL of this and beyond), I started experimenting and exploring New Age ideas, and eventually resolved to stop taking everyone’s word for it and actually dig for answers myself. What’s up with “Chakras” and why is everyone so obsessed? What’s up with Hinduism? I had experienced profound experiences and changes in perspective through Zen and other flavors of Buddhism, which to me was so wildly refreshing after a lifetime of Baptists who, frankly, seem to miss the message, so I figured it was time to dig deeper and wider.

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So, at this point, I began poring through esoterica, religious texts, and listening to countless hours of lectures on these ideas. This continued for about a year or so, beginning in August or September 2024, and continuing until about August 2025. Every day, I would learn, listen, meditate, and research.

That year was a blur of revelation, transformation and growth. I changed a lot in that year, and I attribute it partly, at least, to the radical transformation that real, honest love provides, through my partner. I hadn’t ever experienced real, actual love like I had with her, and I watched as my life slowly transformed in its radiating presence. It’s hard to describe, and even harder to picture if you haven’t been there, but again, I guess IYKYK, lol.

This continued for what seemed like a long time. I would learn, contemplate, and draw ever closer to some unseen end. In me, always, was the feeling that I was learning these things for a specific purpose, a purpose I could not know until I had reached whatever mountaintop point I was searching for.

That was, until the November Orbs came.

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I think I’ll wrap up this one for now, and continue on the next one. 

I plan to continue making more posts like these over time. This is the first time I’ve felt like I’ve been able to really, thoroughly comb through these things through prose, and I’d like to continue.

My goal is to, hopefully, process/work through/digest all of this, and maybe someone out there can help me understand what it was I saw in January 2025. A lot has happened, and there’s a lot I need to get off my chest, but I think this is enough to begin.

Throughout this blog, or whatever this is, I hope someone out there who’s seen the kinds of things that I have can reach out to me and help give me some answers, because after a year of private research and personal contemplation, I feel like I’ve been left with far more questions and nearly zero answers.

See you next time.