Problems faced by ambitious neet dropper

Guys I am a neet dropper and right now I am doing my studies online but it feels like social isolation. My studies are going great but this social isolation thing is consuming me from inside. I really want to do something about this . I am going for 2km run daily while doing 40 pushups daily . But there is no one to talk to . Mujhe ab social anxiety hoti hai. Mere gali mai jo ladke hai unhone kabhi padhi ki nahi . Basically they are chapri and baap ke paise se bullet par ghomte hai . So here there is no one I can really talk to and share my same goals with them .Meri studies mere hisab se achi ka rahi hai parents ke hisab se mujhe aur padhi karni chaiye. I am really fed up from this system yar. Mujhe physical strong bana hai like want to build a physique like anime boys . ( Toji ) . Idhar mere area bahut dhunda par mujhe koi mere jaise like minded people nahi mil rahe hai . I really want to crack this neet . If you share same goals with me and facing same problem like me then please do dm me. I have a solution for this .