how do I tell my therapist I'm spending most of my alone time sleeping so I don't think about not wanting to be here?

TW S.I

title. for context, she knows I'm not doing well and during today' session she told me it's been a while since she saw me with my mood so down and she's right. I have attempted in the past but have no intent to repeat the experience right now, but I am passively suicidal. emphasis on passive. I just wish I wasn't here, but I'm not gonna do anything about it. how do I tell her tho? what could she even do with this information? does it even make sense for me to tell her? idk, I feel so alone and lost right now and I don't even know why. I'm already on meds for ocd and depression, what more can my therapist do? it feels so alienating