patting myself on the back

using this as an outlet to share how proud of myself i am today as i don’t have any one else to cheer me on. i 20f lost my mom last year to cancer and it completely ruined my life. i became an alcoholic, did things im ashamed of like crashing my car, dropped out of college, stopped working, and i became massively depressed and was in and out of psych wards all year. i can say today that i am 70 days sober from alcohol since going to rehab, im medicated and doing better than i have in a long time, im getting my license back this month and i start my first job tomorrow since my mom died. i am so excited to start life again and im so excited that i am getting better. all of these things i couldn’t even imagine being possible in june. i am proud of myself for being persistent and not falling to everything i had against me. i finally feel like a normal person again. i always knew my mom would have hated the person i started to become without her, but today i think she would be proud of me. 🫂