This story of my life?

When I was at the age of 6 to 8 ish I started school One day the teacher who use to teach English said that I need to wait because to give me better understanding of the material students was studying since I was late So in that day I got SA I carried I told no one because you can't go there and talk bad about teacher I shut up it go one for long time I don't know the exact time cause I was child all I know is that I lost hope I lost motivation It was like living but as ghost my life become my prison I couldn't enjoy what other children do It was SA in the morning and abuse in family Yelling cursing pain life was just so much People saw the marks of wires they just chose to ignore I didn't did anything until one day in my 17 I run away with a guy who wanted to left the country Anyway after long journey I finally started different life yet it was the same I couldn't do friendship or relationship pain was just to much since I was new to country I couldn't afford therapy or anything else 7 years later and I still feel it I just wanted to let it out because the thought of losing my life was just consuming

English is my second language I hope you understand