I have hurt alot of people.

After my breakup, I have stopped talking to my friends, I don't pick their calls, it's not that I don't want to talk to them but I just don't feel like talking to anyone like before.

I don't think about my ex as much as before but since breakup but I feel changed. I don't care about judgments as much as before.

It feels like my emotions are either completely numbed or locked for a long time and it's hard for anyone to make me feel the way I did before.

I don't feel like connecting with anyone. Even when I try connecting, I don't feel like talking to them after a certain point (probably after a conversation or few conversations)

And it's even hard for me to communicate them that I don't want to talk to them anymore because I don't want to be rude or make them feel that they did some mistake because of which I am not talking anymore.

Atp, I feel scared connecting with anyone because there are high chances that I would end up hurting them.

I don't want to pass my trauma to the next person.