Realizing a hard truth

I put triggering content because I'm not sure what this would classify as (being definitely cat called and facing I think some kind of sexual harrassment?), what I went through. It's been months, but it still hurts me and It does NOT do me any good both mentally and physically.

So during the last three weeks of summer vacation me, my mother, and my two younger siblings went to my parents' birth country to visit family there (of both my parents). It was really far from home and at some point when we went to my grandmother's house (my mom's side), we stepped out of a taxi car and my mom had to get something from the nearby shop. Not even a few feet away these men—and I'm talking about like grown, maybe in their 30's/40's in a group—with motorcycles made me physically uncomfortable. And then one of the worst things happened as one made some disgusting, nasty kiss face at me, which somehow was amusing to those shitheads. I wasn't; I froze up, was scared, and naturally went to try and tell my mom or her friends (anyone really) but she was too occupied with what she was doing that she brushed me off and told me to wait. I stupidly did, and when I told her as she was done, you know what she told me? “Ignore them”. IGNORE THEM? The men who stayed there for the entire day that you could see RIGHT ACROSS OF THE BALCONY OF THE HOUSE. ACROSS THE STREET. To make matters worse when I told my grandmother and everyone else nobody took it seriously. Nobody cared. And the only thing that I could do was give them the fingers along with my siblings from the balcony when we got there.

I'm sorry if like I come off as agressive or anything, but I've never felt so disgusted with myself and these kinds of people that happen to be men (I know not all are like this, but I keep seeing so many complain that 'not all x do this and/or that' whenever this kind of thing is talked about, which I find disheartening). The fact that my mom didn't protect me then just made me terrified tenfold like.. If she will not help me, let alone listen to me (which she has never done by the way), then who will? Seriously I am sick and tired of grown ass men who probably have kids of their own acting so vile. No matter how far you go, there will always be some kinds like that and that is so upsetting. This sort of public harassment has happened to me even in a supermarket where I was standing in a line and the man behind me said something about my rump. I felt SO scared. Nobody around me heard anything and I froze up then too. I'm scared if something bad were to happen to me that I'll freeze up instead of stomping on their feet or something. I'm always going to remind myself that not everyone is like this and that some are just fucked up in the head but this is not okay. I was a teenager. And now that I'm not I feel like I'm going to be blamed for having done something if anything happens or if I get cat called again. I know it can sadly happen to anyone regardless, but that doesn't help anything, it only worsens it. Thanks for reading, I hope it isn't disturbing or triggering? I didn't know how to flair this so I just took a safer option just in case :)

Have a nice day/night and stay safe🍀