GAH again 🫩

Just a bit of a vent

So I’m on Accutane. Unfortunately, I’m one of the unlucky few who experience a purge. I purged when starting treatment, and I’ve purged every time my dose has increased.

I increased my dose to 40mg (full therapeutic dose for my weight) two weeks ago. I currently have 3 HUGE pimples on my left cheek (the problem side of my face). I’ve actually been pretty disciplined about not skin picking, but today I couldn’t resist. When removing my makeup, the pimples had become so large that one of the spots started oozing. So I washed my face and then used a pair of q tips to gently drain all the spots. I got the pus out, but I’m so disappointed in myself for having squeezed all three pimples. However, I’m proud of myself for not ‘binge picking’. I just gently squeezed those three spots, cleansed, iced, and left it at that.

I’m just terrified of scarring because Accutane makes your skin very fragile. It’s already given me a few scars. I’m also dreading the PIE that takes a whole month to fade. 😭

Please can I have some comfort or reassurance? I’m just feeling a bit defeated haha.

Hopefully they will be flat (or at least flatter) by tomorrow?? If not, I’ll just use my starface patches lol