I failed my Irish winter test :( (5th year)

I got 37% for my irish HL winter exam. I'm so disappointed. I also only got 63% for my English paper, i got 38/50 for othello and 19/40 for poetry (i didn't write fast enough and only got less than a page down, out of 2-3 expected pages). I was literally a H1-2 student a few weeks ago 😭😭 i'm so distraught, i know I'm good at English even with my strict grader teacher haha. I'm considering dropping Irish because i don't intend to count it for CAO, however its so humiliating dropping down after getting distinctions and higher merits in higher level JC. In my actual JC i got a HM. This is so bad helpp im crying, I've only failed one other test in my life and that was also Irish... okay thank you for listening to me tweak