Hi, i'm working on living a balanced California Sober kind of life

I have issues in the past from hard shit that I won't discuss.

I have had reckless experiences with psychedelics that I did not necessarily have the means to plan out the correct way.

I have been just a person with a general addictive personality at times.

And I'm struggling with quitting alcohol and cigarettes.

I wanna just use my vape, and only smoke cigs when the vape is out of charge. At least for now. Maybe until I can get a 2nd vape, aha. So neither would ever be out of charge.

And when it comes to alcohol. It's just been a crutch for when I feel uncomfortable with my decisions and want to escape my reality... I'm beginning to feel more comfortable with myself and have been needing it less and less.

But sometimes I just get like inconsolably discontent, and I have to get alcohol or i end up spiraling. I'm trying to find ways to get myself out of this pattern.

I think a lot of my anxiety has stemmed from having an SSI case, and once I get a definitive answer on the post-judge decision, I'll feel a lot better about the whole thing.