Mtf freind was probably into me the whole time and imma kms I'm such an idiot

Its literally the night before I leave and go back to the US I just found out the beautiful trans girl I wrote a pathetic yearn post about was probably into me the whole time and I want to die.

I gave her a hug goodbye the last time I would see her and later my friend who kinda shipped us together asked if I hugged her and was giggling like his ship came true (he knew damn well I was into her this whole time) and I was like yeah how did you know and apparently she texted him about it was talking about like "I dont deserve him" type shit and she was actually into me and I'm actually roping rn.