Unsent letter to the woman I loved, and still do.

Hanggang ngayon, nababagabag pa rin ako kung anong gagawin ko. Pero nakapili na ata ako?

Feeling ko I pushed you too much over the edge na kinamumuhian mo na ko to the point na kahit anong maging galaw ko if I continue, lalo ka lang lalayo and despise me.

If I stop naman then I prove you right na hindi kita tunay na mahal. Na infatuation lang to. Na attached lang ako.

Na sumuko ako agad.

Pero masakit man, I will choose to let you go not because attachment o infatuation lang to. Maniwala ka man o sa hindi gusto kita ipaglaban. Gusto ko ipilit. Pero I'm choosing this dahil ito yung may benefit na makakapagbigay ng peace sayo. Yung hindi lalong kokomplikado yung buhay mo. You've gone through so much just this year alone. Hindi mo kailangan ng katulad ko na gugulo sa buhay mo regardless of my pure intentions.

Masakit man but I will set aside yung nararamdaman ko para sa kapayapaan mo.

Having said that, I'm backing off and just admire you sa malayo. Magiging taga suporta mo nalang ako in the background. I will root for you na ma-achieve mo lahat ng gusto ma-achieve. Magiging alaala nalang ako sayo.

Andito pa rin naman ako bilang kaibigan kung gugustuhin mo.

Alam ko it was wrong for me to pursue you knowing na hindi ka pa ready. Pero hindi lang kaya ng konsensya ko na hayaan ka knowing you hide behind that pretty smile of yours pero ang totoo, you are hurting inside nang dahil sa putanginang ex mo.

I'm sorry na lalo ko lang ginulo buhay mo. I'm sorry I came off as controlling, I just cared. No regrets, no hard feelings, walang sumbatan. I did and gave everything to see a glimpse of your smile, to get your mind off the pain kahit for the many 2mins I spent with you lang, and it was every bit worth it.

Take care always. Paalam.