29 [F4M] #Online, searching for a fwb who enjoys the darker side of poetic sadisim

I am a 5'1, american, blond hair blue eye'd girl who is desperate for my other half. Now, I'm in a committed relationship, and don't seek to leave it anytime soon. so any connection we developed would be something we have to be ok with never becoming a romantic relationship- every emotion, and form of it, outside of that is completely on the table. I'm not a super sexual person- typically that develops with the relationship. I need someone poetic, who understands exactly what I feel. I wont be answering any questions about m current relationship because all that matters is us. what we can create together without the confines of strings and the labels we need with it. I am your softest angel, bright colors and beautiful voice, and I want someone psychotic who can hasn't yet met their match. I want us to emotionally ruin one another so that no one else will ever compare to what we can make the other feel.

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still here?

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Every night, I dream of you. You worship me, not with sex, or touches, but your words and actions. I see you, feel you, watching me. learning me. providing a life for me full of guidance and care. every moment in your presence is saturated in poetic love. I am your muse. your breath. your color in a black world. No one else can have me, not the way you do. They will never hear my whispers of praise. they will never know my soft voice as you do. Because they do not worship me. They do not see me as the sun and stars and water that flows beneath the earths crumbling surface. They would not crawl across burning stones for me, they would not hunt for me, they would not kill for me. But you would. Without a single hesitant thought.

So here I am now, seeking you out, reaching my hand from this isolated pit. Begging you to save me, pull me back to where you are. Dominate me, possess me, worship me. Earn your divinity piece by piece- give me a god to worship again. let me gaze on you from my knees, let me show you how good a disciple I can be. Become my deity. See my, not as just a sexual being, but a force of soft life moldable under your hands. Let me finally meet my match, and see how dark your desires truly run. I promise, they will never be as dark as mine.