I’ve spent 60k plus this year on e-girls as a virgin m19

Needless to say, I spent a lot of this year with my dick in my hand, and I’m your classic addict. Always stroking, always horny, just a bit of a mess. If I’m not at work, I’m in my room gooning- and as a trust fund it’s easy to spend a lot of time there just really stuck in a loop of self hatred and too horny to think. Last week alone it was like 5k and one night in particular I stroked for 12 hours straight, at the end just being a drooling mess for anything. I can’t stop it, I can’t help myself and get triggered over the smallest things anymore and it’s crazy at this point.