Feeling empty and lonely

Im 21m w3ndi wahd lmochkil li kept going on for 3yrs now hwa i always feel empty like tahaja maendha m3na w dont get me wrong i still do whatever i had to do wchad style de vie mzian wlkn it doesn't really have any taste and i dont enjoy it even food kanakl ha bach nakl i cant even tell wach lmakla naqsha ml7a wla nn kolchi kayjini bhal bhal. Whta bnsba lighadi igoliya find new hobbies i tried and it doesn't help still the same feeling. W mea had emptiness kanhes brasi lonely af like nobody gets how i feel even family and friends w for relationships its the same shit too when i open up about everything they end up leaving for some reason ( ghaliban they think im sick) w when i dont open up they say that im im too boring and i look like i didn't care so db maerftch mandir i think im stuck with this forever and it will ruin all my relationships with people around me