Reassure me! Just bought the Nova 2 for €79 and I'm having a mini crisis 😭

I’m someone who doesn’t have much money (or more like, they're always priorities to pay for) but just bought it from a Lovehoney deal, and now I feel incredibly guilty for spending money on this kind of thing 😭 I feel the urge to cancel aah

Was this a good purchase? Do you think it’s worth it? The only thing I’ve bought before was a clit sucker some years ago and I hated it, and ever since then I’m terrified of wasting money if I try another thing that doesn’t work (I've an history of no libido and failed solo attempts)

I’m not fully sure if the black “X” model is the same quality as the colored ones. If anyone knows, please tell me