Betrayal Trauma

Up to 3 years it takes to get over being betrayed my therapist says. I have to live with the constant thought of what you did to me. I can’t even escape it in my dreams. I wake up with night terrors reliving May 22nd 2025 all the time.

J.. What breaks me, even now, is knowing that you couldn’t make it through 28 days without a phone call from me before you went and cheated. I wasn’t gone living some different life — I was somewhere trying to fix myself, trying to be a stronger, healthier version of the mother B deserves. I was fighting for my mind, for my stability, for our son’s future. And while I was doing that, you were supposed to be the one constant he could count on. Instead, you filled that silence with someone else. You didn’t crumble because you missed me — you crumbled because loyalty was never something you were willing to hold onto when it required patience or responsibility. I thought you would put our son first, just for those four weeks, while I was trying to come back better for both of you. But you showed me that even when I stepped away to heal, even when I trusted you with everything that mattered to me, you still chose yourself over our family. And that’s the kind of hurt that doesn’t fade — it just teaches me who you really were the entire time.