Absolutely "Stuck"

Hi friends. Just a quick bio: 40yo, male, ADHD, depression, and GAD. No insurance cuz no job

I just can't hold a job. Just lost the best paying one that I ever have and for nonsensical reasons. I got fired for not attending a string of meetings. When I pointed out that I was on vacation during the meetings, and that I deflated his accusations, he starts with personal insults. Anything he can think of. I have lost several jobs all in similar strange ways. Always out of nowhere. Now here I am several months later. Still no job. I just can't do it anymore. I put in my best and it is always rewarded with a kick in the nads. My brain feels "stuck". Like I am just done working and that is that. But man I gotta be able to live. It is easy to say "go get a job" or "push through it", and I usually am a guy who can, but man this time it is like something broke. I start to tear up if I try to force it.

I am scared and want a way out of this. I think the best thing for me would be to somehow be able to push aside past experiences like they didn't happen so that I can think clearly. Trouble is I have no idea how to do that. Any help/advise would be incredible.

Thanks for reading.