How can you possibly think I don’t want reconciliation?

Like from the start I told you I’m nothing like any other man you have been with in your life I only act how I think you want me too or by what you have set as boundaries or flat out demanded /told me! And I do so with your needs and comfort way ahead of anything I desire. That said the only reason I’m distant from you is because you told to forget about anything happening between us ever again tbh that one statement alone was and still is the most painful thing you ever said to me/ caused me to feel. If you think for one sec I’m scared to be intimate/ connect with you (that’s the one thing I want more then anything else in this world) let me just say that’s proof you didn’t get to know me as much as you think you did. If someone offered me a million dollars or a second chance with you. Without a doubt I’d choose you over and over again. BET! The hardest part of my day is not pursuing you. That’s the only reason you might be able to say I made it clear I don’t want to reconnect. But deep down you’re protecting your choices. I understand that just pertains to your comfort again. I don’t mind being the one who is uncomfortable as long as you are happy and feeling in control. So listen here you sexy control freak don’t think I can’t be the man you need me to be when you won’t let me really show you…..