Idk if I should take the meds , asking for advice

Hey , so I’ve been getting depressed almost 2 month ago. The first week was extreme with the feelings , then I just suppressed these feelings and idk how to describe it but I just live ? I don’t work , I cannot see myself meeting new people and being friendly ( currently I’m trying to find the most basic job because I need to pay taxes and I came to a point a do need at least some money ) I was a person with a lot of dreams , now I know I’m not going to make them happened , I think that’s what broke me the most , and I do not belong anywhere

I have went to a psychiatrist and she gave me light pills , but I never took any and I am scared a little taking them. Like , in what way they even help? How can they change the way I see myself and my whole views on life? I am trying to find a psychologist but the one that are public all full / takes months (already applied) I don’t have money for private ones since I don’t work yet , and 1 session is like 150$

anyway thanks for anyone reading , I was wondering if anyone was in a similar situation and give me advice. I do think that if I didn’t need money , I would‘ve just stayed in my parents home forever and not even leave the house , but honestly I’m trying not to think about all that because it makes me sad