I (16F) don’t like my boyfriend (16M)

Honestly, I’m not sure what to do. I’ve already bought him Jordans for Christmas and he’s already gotten me something, so I feel like I can’t end it or the money will be wasted, right?

I feel like as soon as I started dating him, I’ve hated him more. Genuinely, I want him to die. I hung out with him yesterday and the entire time I just kept thinking about how I wished I was with my friends instead. And not even a day later he’s already trying to arrange to hang out again. Like, stopppp.

I’m a person who likes to be alone already, so I don’t hang out that much even with my friends. But recently I’ve been forcing myself to go out more—like going to the gym with my friend and meeting up with other people. Plus I still have work and college (I love college so much).

So that already leaves me with not much time to myself, and he keeps trying to arrange things. All I can think is, “Go awaaaay!” What is wrong with me, seriously? It feels so rude. He bought me flowers too, which is so sweet… but again, all I felt was embarrassed. I’m not a romantic person, but why do I feel embarrassed instead of happy?

I don’t know, it feels like a chore—someone I have to give attention to and give my time to. So I guess, to sum it up, I feel like a bad person and I want advice LIKE WHAT DO I DOOOOO?

Maybe I am just weird. I’ve never had interest in a relationship, but everyone wants one and says how nice it is. IT’S NOT NICE. Maybe I just picked a bad option, but it feels too late to change now.

TL;DR- i hate my boyfriend but there’s nothing wrong with him and i can’t break up with him since i got him jordan’s for christmas should i just suffer till january ?