Need some advice. Should I have hope?

So im going to try to keep this short and to the point. My ex and I broke up like 5 months ago because I lied about some dumb shit (nothing involving infidelity) based off insecurities and lack of communication. Me and this women where in love the connection we had was indescribable but shes the type to harvest hurt and not let it go and dwell on it and I understand that. After the break up we tried to fix things and she just couldnt do it, she kept bringing up how confused she is because I treat her so well and am so good to her but she is hurt and still vary angry at me so we stopped trying to fix things and decided to remain friends. She hasnt blocked me on anything zero things and we talk a few times in the week. Sometimes shes vary chatty than she starts to fade away and ignore responses. She told me she does this because shes still hurt and needs the mental space from me. So I respected that and stopped texting so much. Well last week she asked me at 930pm if I could help her move her move some heavy things, when I was done I was omw home and she texted me saying I didnt have to leave, she wanted me to stay longer. I ended up going back over and we chated for hours, she asked me to rub her feet and back (this is something I use to do for her after work) she asked me to stay the night and i did. Nothing sexual happend, but we where cuddling and she started balling. She said she really missed me and needed this and she felt bad for being distant but I hurt her and she just feels so confused.she told me she crys sometimes at night, than sometimes she get angry because I broke her trust Well after this happened she was chatty with me for a few days than sent me a text saying she feels bad because she didnt want me to think we are going to get back together and she feels she gave me the wrong intention, than went back to being distant. At this point im really trying not to bother her and let her heal, im currently going to cousling to dive into my trust issues and insecurities. I really love this women and I know she loves me but the hurt runs deep for her. Should I keep hope, and give her space? I need some advice on how to navigate this. I litterally manifested this women in my life and fucked it all up. I truly feel she is the one because iv never had a connection like I do with her. Iv been so depressed lately and I think about her everyday.