So today in geography the questions wording was very hard to understand it was literally shakespeares archives so i asked him but he explained something completely else and then i felt stupid so i laughed (i laugh at everything and i cant control it😔)  then asked again 

so he just read out the question and didnt elaborate so i laughed even harder and my friend next to me laughed too so he asked "whats so funny" in that angry weird ass tone of his and i couldnt stop it looked like i took drugs or something 

then i asked once again but again i didnt explain his wording of the question then he told me that he already explained it (?) like and that was genuinely my breaking point like shut up and i laughed so much and from the corner of my eye my friend was holding her laugh she was like red red 

then he yelled that i had to bite my cheeks so hard that they bled (like the picture from that green guy from the goku anime) then i tried to answer but i still didnt understand it and half the class was already laughing when he asked me i gave him a smart answer that was actually right 

but ofc he has to find a flaw in literally everything because my wording wasnt shakespearean he asked me if i also wrote it in 'that weird way' when he could clearly see i was NOT from germany like sorry that i dont speak german on the daily so guess what me and my friend did

we laughed again

a while later i asked if i was allowed to go to the bathroom and he felt so tuff when he just turned away and said 'no' mind you the teachers HAVE to let us go in germany so i just went away and made some useless comment which made him hate me even more 

before all that i was the teachers pet i laughed at all his unfunny jokes i made small talk with him and i always opened the door wide for him but all that progress for 3 years is GONE 😭

then i came home to my mother asking me about it and why he wrote such a long email because i needed to work on my attitude like maybe explain it better next time thats literally his job he asked if i had any mental illness (?) which i took personally like excuse me? its not that deep bro trust me

anyway i need advice on how to regain trust and be the teachers pet again

I laughed at my teacher today while he was yelling at me and I genuinely couldnt control it (he sent an email to my mother)😭💔✋ (image related)