Wish I could see therapist’s thoughts…

Is he sad for me when I tell my stories and how they affect me to the current day? Is he sad when I say that my dad used child-me as a therapist/emotional support animal? Is he angry when he hears that my dad hit me? (Etc., etc…. There are so many stories.)

I wish my therapist would offer me a hug so I could cry on his shoulder. I wonder if he thinks of me as messy or pathetic. I feel so alone sometimes.