I didn't kill myself yesterday

Things have been so bad recently. My girlfriend left, dysphoria has hit twice as hard, I've given up all hope in the future, everything feels useless, and it's impossible for me to come out, transition, or do much of anything affirming. I planned on doing it yesterday, but I didn't. I don't know why I didn't, but I didn't. I don't know the point of this post, I guess I just need some semblance of support from anyone on this earth. I don't think l can do this much longer