4 months postpartum and overwhelmed. How do you survive leaving your baby for work?

4 months postpartum and going back to work in 6 weeks, and I’m already feeling the depression hit. I’ve had ADHD my whole life but haven’t been on meds since we started trying to conceive in early 2023. I stopped breastfeeding about a month ago, so I’m ready to get back on them.

I keep feeling like time is flying and that I haven’t done enough during maternity leave. I love my son so much that I can’t imagine someone else getting to spend the days with him once I go back to work. Normally I’m okay, so I know this is probably depression talking. But with ADHD, the thought of going back to work in medicated feels impossible. I literally lose sleep over how I’ll get it all done.

Anyone else feel like this around 4–5 months postpartum?