I feel like a failed father

Hello, I would love some input and some emotional support for my situation.

There’s so much to say I barely know where to start…

Well I’m a Father of a almost 2 year old son, and I’ve got a girlfriend as well (she is the mother of my son) who is currently having to stay in a homeless shelter because I can’t afford to provide for them.

We’ve been trying to work through this together and I’ve made progress I found work, tried to make a plan to save and even managed to get us a car so he can get to daycare.

The problem is, I can’t afford to pay rent to give us a place to live and I’m currently stuck at my mother’s house because I have nowhere to turn though that may change very soon..

You see.. she hates me. She never used to but she sees me as being a loser unable to do anything she says she wants me out and to find an apartment that she’s sick of me and sick of this and that I stress her out so I just walk on eggshells and try my best to stay out of her way.

I feel like a failed father, I’m trying really hard to succeed and ignore the terrible home life I have so I can save and make a plan for my son girlfriend and I but whenever she sees I do have money she wants it.

I’m told daily I’m not enough not doing enough that I’m a loser and everyone wants to tell me what to do but whenever I do those things I just get doubted and told that it’s not enough..

I’m doing all the things.. working.. trying to save money.. making time for my son staying out of mom’s way and it just feels like nothing I do is ever enough.

I don’t have credit or anything cause of bad decisions when I was younger and it’s just throwing me into a huge depression I don’t know what to do or where to turn and I’m doubting all my choices and my chest hurts so bad from stress I just feel sick constantly.

I’m trying to fight I really am but it’s so hard and I really don’t know how to escape this.

I just want my son to be safe and secure and be able to be the hero he needs. Why can’t anyone see I’m trying all I want is some support and love and probably guidance.

I feel so alone in all of this. Thanks for taking the time to read it does mean a lot..

-J