30’s and AuDHD

Hi! I’m a woman in my 30s, almost 31. My whole life has been a battle with dropping out of school and not being able to find a job, dealing with depression and other issues. I recently got my diagnosis, but I feel like it’s not helping me at all.

I studied two degrees and didn’t finish either of them. I’ve had several jobs and gaps in my résumé because of my condition (something I didn’t know until now).

I need help and advice because I don’t know what to do with my life. I want a job, I want to move out, I want to find someone to share life with, and everything feels so far away since I didn’t accomplish anything in my 20s. I feel like I will never move forward, like life is already over, everyone moving ahead except me.

Today I strongly considered suicide as my best option because I truly can’t find a solution to my problems. They called me selfish and only reinforced that I’ve never been good for anything.