Five months out and feeling all the feelings

Hey everyone. I’m about five months out from when my spouse and I plan to start trying again and the waiting is starting to feel… loud.

We actually started TTC back in March this year but paused because of a cross-country move. The desire was already awakened for me and it never really went back to sleep. My spouse is getting there at his own pace which seems pretty normal based on what I’ve read here but it still leaves me feeling a little tender some days.

We’re both in therapy right now and working through personal things while also trying to strengthen our marriage which I’m grateful for. It’s good work but still work.

And of course the holidays are full of pregnancy announcements and close friends sharing their news. I’m off most social media which helps but it still hits sometimes.

I know there’s no way to predict how our journey will go but part of me still worries about being the anomaly. I’m trying not to spiral just being honest that this waiting season is harder than I expected.

If you’re in the same spot I’d love to hear what you’re doing to stay occupied or grounded while you wait. I have my preconception appointment at the end of the month and I’m hoping it’ll help even a little.

TLDR: Five months out from TTC again after pausing due to a move. Desire is strong for me, my spouse is warming up slower, holidays are full of announcements and it’s hitting hard. We’re both in therapy and working on ourselves and our marriage. Looking for ideas on how others stay grounded during the waiting season.