It's actually over

We broke up and she has moved on with someone else. It's like I've lost her twice, as a friend and as a girlfriend. I can't imagine my life without her, we spoke everyday since I was 17, I'm now 32.

She was my world and tonight she confirmed we can't be in each other's lives at all. Which I understand, but I just feel oddly numb and at the same time shocked to my core.