Developing a sense of self by realizing what video games I love and hate...

For those unfamiliar with what I'm talking about, the "sense of self" is an individual's perception of their own identity, encompassing their self-image, beliefs, values, and goals. A person's sense of self is shaped by their unique likes and dislikes, which are influenced by a combination of innate traits, personal experiences, and environmental factors. Likes and dislikes can help build a stronger sense of self by providing clarity on values and preferences.

Many individuals who suffer from CPTSD never got a chance to develop a sense of self due to chaos and constantly being in survival mode.

Now on to my topic at hand. Over the past few years, I've been working with my therapist closely to do different things to help me develop a stronger sense of self. Things like taking up new hobbies, traveling to places I've never been before, and exploring my own head.

As an avid video gamer (I have MANY games lol), one way that I'm developing a sense of self is exploring what video games I love and hate. In the past I would've been scared to develop my own opinions on games, especially popular ones that I really don't like or have problems. But lately I've been allowing myself to be honest and bold. For instance, I recently realized that I can't stand the Xenoblade series. They're essentially open world RPGs with MMO style combat system. I hate the combat in these games and the characters often feel bland. Another series I don't care for is the Persona games. I'm not a fan of the gameplay loop. As a 40 year old man, it's not for me lol. Go to school and take exams, spend time with friends to earn points, go through boring dungeon. Rinse and repeat.

Recently, the biggest game I came to terms with have major issues with is Silksong. Now let me be clear, I do think it's a pretty good game. I just don't think it's a masterpiece. I think it has way too many glaring problems. The exploration is piss poor and not very rewarding. There's four too many flying enemies that move away from you which makes engaging in combat frustrating. The fact that you have to grind for resources in order to be able to use tools is a terrible design choice. I could go on. Eventually, I did beat the game but it's one I won't be returning to. Unlike the first game which I thought was a masterpiece.

No onto a game I absolutely loved. And that is Clair obscure expedition 33. The story, the characters, the music, and the combat were all exceptional in every way. I hope they make many more sequels. I'm still listening to the soundtrack even months later and I'm considering a replay.

Anyway, I know this is a niche topic and not many will read it. But it feels good to be able to develop my own opinions on things like this.

Have you had a similar experience with likes and dislikes helping you to discover who you are?