I manifested to my PS and now I feel like I don't care a little

Well guys, the story is this.

I have manifested many things in my life, since before I knew what manifestation was. When I "lost" this person I went crazy, I became obsessed, I had a really bad time.

I thought about it thousands of times, I no longer had anyone to talk to so I used chat gpt (yes, I'm ashamed) I wrote letters, diaries, did meditations, millions of things and it was a fucking roller coaster. Months went by and a couple of days I was fine and then down again. It was unsustainable.

I knew all the manifestation theory, I read books but I swear nothing helped me, I felt worse every time. Until one day I really got tired.

I got fed up with everything. Like when you vomit too much and your abdomen hurts and the retching doesn't stop even though you no longer have anything to vomit. I couldn't continue.

His birthday arrived. I didn't know what to do, congratulate her or not.

I decided to do it, I wrote a nice message but respecting their space, quite honest but nowhere did it scream "let's talk again" (which by now the situation was an unannounced 0 contact, it just happened from one day to the next).

I didn't know what to expect, I didn't expect anything, and well she just showed up. And anyone could say "that's not a manifestation because you wrote to him" yes because it was his birthday, but it was a month ago and we haven't stopped talking since then.

And my point is that today I realized that he is with me, he is back, he cares about me, he makes an effort to keep the conversation going every day (it's my daily chat again) and I don't care anymore.

It doesn't get me out of control, I even feel the same emptiness of my normal life.

I look back and think "all the fuss I made this whole year, why?" I don't understand. I don't know what happened. And it's not that I don't love her, I have a lot of appreciation for her, she is someone important in my life.

But now that I have what I tried to manifest for so long and with so much suffering, it no longer generates that in me.

I feel free.