My lesbian girlfriend told me she likes dicks

I’m reposting this with more info attached to the post.

This is not a trans-exclusionary post, please don't read it that way!!

Hello. I'm very conflicted about this information. Perhaps for some it will seem silly and they won't understand, but it's causing me a lot of anxiety.

I'm a very political person, and I'm very politically active as a lesbian. Being a lesbian is my political and personal identity, and I know that affects my daily life. I really like the idea of ​​being a lesbian, and this idea is about loving other women, being attracted to breasts, vulvas, a woman's body with everything that comes with that idea.

I have a history of sexual violence with a man, so for me, being a lesbian doesn't involve penises in any way. This has nothing to do with invalidating trans women, not at all; it's just that for me, and the way I experience my lesbianism, these categories create my own concept.

She's also very vocal about her lesbianism, she always rants about men with me and people in general , and I generally felt she was "just as lesbian" as me, but this information now makes me feel like we don't share that political ideology, and it makes me feel very strange. She didn’t want to tell me because she told me this could change our relationship, and I thought she was being silly, but now this feels like a huge thing on my mental shoulders. She has only been with women for like 10 years, and I know this information won’t change our relationship, but I feel so conflicted rn. I love her and I want to be with her cuz we have a great relationship, I just need to talk to someone about my struggles.

Please don't attack me; I'm truly writing this out of confusion and loneliness in this situation because I don't know who to tell all this to. Does anyone share my feelings or can offer me some guidance during this strange time in my life?

On the last post I didn’t clarify how or why the conversation started. I don’t remember what was the beginning of our conversation, but I said that I didn’t like dicks, in any form, and then she took a long breath and said that she didn’t want to tell me this because she thought I wouldn’t get it, but that she liked dicks without the guy part, if she could disappear the man from the dick, she would like the dick. And she was talking about specifically a penis of flesh and blood, cuz we started talking about dildos and how you can use them to penetrate your partner, etc, etc,etc, but when we were talking about that, it was her using the dildo to penetrate me (or other people), but when she was talking about the dick, it was her LIKING dicks, like her enjoying them

After reading some of your comments I think my feelings are also coming from a place of insecurity, cuz she’s not talking about something that can penetrate her, but a part of the body I don’t have and I never going to have, so she liking that and talking about that made me feel that I’m missing something that she wants.

Also. I’m 23 and she’s 32, we have been in a relationship for 4 months-ish.