I don't even know anymore

Had success last year, changed things up, started going away and making "us" a priority, tried some new stuff (pegging) successfully, she got on hormones. Now we're back where we were before, been 7 months and no sign of that changing anytime soon.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm begging. My motivation to do anything else is gone. I just ache for affection now.

Anyway, just had to say it somewhere.