Lost my children, how do I make sense of this?

I recently had a premature birth to twins who were 21w2d old and they were just 3 days short from being viable candidates for NICU. My husband and I watched them pass away in our arms after 2 hours from their birth. I have such a hard time understanding our situation. However, head knowledge wise, I theologically understand that we live in a broken world and God does not intend death or suffering and He weeps with us.

Yet I find it so hard to worship during this time of grief or even dare to have faith again in my prayers. I am stumped for words, lost in emotions/ grief. I still find comfort in reading my bible but I'm battling in believing how good can come out of this situation.

Any verses or books of the Bible you'd recommend me to read during this time? I've been reading Psalms and listening to hymns that sing songs in Psalms. But I have been desperate to hold fast on to something from the Bible or Christian book for encouragement. I'm just lost in my grief and don't really know where to go from here.