Where should I move to? USA

For context, i am 18 F, about to turn 19. I was living with a community in central OR for the last month, and I just left a few days ago.

I left because I feel like i need a little more privacy because I'm afraid to try new things when i am constantly being seen, or something. I have always lived in a small town till i got there, so i am kind of scared to move to a city.

I have been sleeping in my car, though, because after i left, i was like wait, i don't know where i want to move, even, i am not ready to pay for a place. i don't mind, but also, wtf. I don't have any issues with other people doing it, but I feel really nervous and kind of like a nuisance doing that much longer.

OK. MY OPTIONS are... vague.

1. Go back to the community in OR? I would only like to be in central Oregon if i am there. A bonus is I can go to school, which i planned to do originally. Yes, i later say that being there hurt my ability to play music, but I honestly think if i went back, i could turn that around, but only for guitar, if i bribe someone to help me, haha. Also, it's almost my birthday and i haven't had an actual celebration in the past 4 or 5 years, so i kind of like the idea of being with people for it since i actually had good relationships there, i think. I am not sure why i left right before the holidays. I love the spot in bend so much, I think it's lots of fun, but i think im just way too attached to it and the people there.

2. Colorado, hopefully somewhere close to one of the major cities. CO is a top option for me because i have family on the West Coast and don't want to go too far, but also a lot more music for me to go see, which is big for me. I wouldn't need to go too far east. I spent my summer in CO. One of the more specific reasons for wanting to leave the community home was because I want to be able to progress musically, and i had a hard time getting myself to around others. Maybe I haven't been to the right spots, but I am not particularly attracted to CO's nature, though i have seen some breathtaking spots, I would probably not live somwhere that i could easily get to them from.

3. Washington state, probably around Yelm, wherever i can find closest to being nowhere, or if I could find a private room in Seattle, maybe. I love it so far. I have been here for 5 days, i think. The forests are great and it is very beautiful. i think it has great hiking, which i appreciate. Obviously Seattle gets lots of music, but i do think Colorado is a better option on that end of things.

4. Wyoming. i don't know, its a place. I genuinely have no idea what I am doing I might need to use a dart board ATP

I am not really sure what to do. I know bringing up music is stupid. its not like i plan to be an actual musician, i just like it when i can be somewhere that gets good bands. I feel like i need to go somewhere i can live alone, but also i get really lonely, so idk if im just digging a grave for myself. so far, i feel like i have, but that's probably only because i have been in my car, lol.

Moving anywhere with a population bigger than like 30 thousand people is a city to me, so if go to somewhere big it would be a huge adjustment for me.

I love the spot in bend so much, I think it's lots of fun, but i think im just way too attached to it and the people there.

worst (or best) case scenario, i can't decide so instead i go back to the community place for the holidays, go WWOOF somewhere, and hopefully have a clue when i get back.