I was abused my whole childhood and didn't realise until last year

I lived with my aunt and uncle growing up I was homescooled and totally isolated i didn't really see anyone outside of our family unit so things like sleeping all together in the same bed never felt strange or weird because I had no concept of it being unusual when things worsened and the abuse began I had no point of reference for anything being askew. Everything seems normal nothing was scary or painful

So when I was separated from my abusers and moved away for school so many stories I told new friends I made quickly made me realise that my experiences growing up was not normal even things I still think are innocent like no closed doors ever my friends will tell me that's weird

Idk I feel like I should be affected more by my abuse and I am affected it makes me feel dumb and not like people my age but when I read about other victims I don't relate because I didn't have a shameful guilty environment growing up I don't feel like a victim even now