Pathetic

I wish I felt comfortable enough to actually go out and have sex with other people but I find myself completely unsexy. I’m awkward in real life and I’m bored of dating/hook up apps. I just don’t feel sexy or sometimes sensual? I’m always jealous of people who embrace that side of them and don’t hide it or pretend that that sex isn’t even a desire of theirs or something that they think about most of the time. I don’t think I’ll ever get over it.