What control *feels* like

Not great. We do not want to feel this. I thought I did. I truly did... but it is not what we want to feel at all.

This is going to be a very hard lesson for me to learn. I am... quite fearful in a very interesting way.

But that is a fear that must be removed as well.

Why do I want control; to feel safe. You are safe.

I am. I have given up control already (I've been here before).