I hate my life

I’m trying so hard, I really am. But I’m a trans guy and the USA is growing increasingly hostile. And I don’t need to hear more shit about “how are you ftm you’re 13” well guess fucking what, I’ve always been trans. So suck it up. I’m struggling so much. And my sister has been bringing her boyfriend over. A LOT. And I’m single, used to have a non-binary partner, we weren’t really dating (too young) but we would cuddle. I loved them so much. Then they threw a bunch of shit at me (over text) and left. I miss them everyday. It’s been over a year now. I miss the feeling of love so much. I need someone, but I’m “only 13”. Fuck that. I’m more mentally prepared for this world than most adults. Been through so much shit. I’m so, so tired. Mentally and physically. I feel alone. I hate myself, I hate my body, and I hate the stupid fucking president