I might have bpd

I think I'm going to get tested for BPD too. I don't want to steal your thing or make this about myself. Hell I don't even want anyone to know I'm doing it.

It's been strange this past month. I know you're taking time to learn to cope with your possible BPD, I really do. I know you've been struggling with the antipsychotics and I've been too wrapped up in what this means for us as opposed to sitting down and actually thinking about it. But the other night I did. I actually sat and learned about what was going through your head. A lot of it hit really close to home. The favourite person, the splitting. It describes the relationships I've had in the past few years, it described my relationship with you.

You know I always kind of hated how you said I was too normal. Just a normal person – and there's nothing blatantly wrong with me. My head just never really felt right and I constantly feel like I'm lying to everyone when I interact with them. But who I was with you is who I want to be. Normal and far too kind.

But that's not me. I get obsessive and jealous, and when I don't have an obsession I feel depressed and everything is meaningless. I might not be borderline. But if I am would that be too much for you? Could you accept that I'm not just that 'normal girl' Sammie?