Lowkey just frustrated w life

So like I’m already dealing with the typical senior year stress of like college application and keeping up with my classes and doing a sport and keeping my job but it was finally starting to get a bit better and then like last week I found out I have endocarditis which meant I had to be hospitalized for 9 days and I have to be on antibiotics for the next 6 weeks and wake up every 6 hours to do them so I’m not gonna get a full night of sleep till like January and I’m limited with what I can do for my sport. Yesterday was my first day back to school and we have a group project that my partner has done barely anything for while I’ve done all of it and I don’t really want to narc to my teacher bc idk if they have smth going on in their life that I don’t know about but I’m like really frustrating that I’m doing the whole thing alone. And then I had an in class assignment that my teacher went over with us in class and I made like 2 really stupid mistakes that she corrected but other than that she said mine looked good but for all the other kids she like tore theirs apart so I think she’s just being easy on me which I don’t really want bc then my final is going to be bad. And then when I went to my next class my teacher called me out on being out she didn’t really mean it in a bad way just like oh u missed last class so u need to pay close attention but like everyone turned to look at me. And then in my next class we were talking about something that I had like experienced and my teacher called me out and asked me to explain what it was like and I was like stuttering and pausing bc I really don’t like speaking in front of the class. And now I have a math test first thing tmw morning that I’m not at all ready for and I can’t skip so I have to figure out how to email him and say “hey i like can not take this bc im not at all ready” or just take the F. And I’m like absolutely exhausted bc I just got out of the hospital Sunday and haven’t had a full night sleep in over a week and wont for a while.