I accidentally told my SP "I hate you" today. || What should I do?

I accidentally told my SP "I hate you" today during an argument because they kept insisting that I did care about what they were saying. I was doing quite well with living in the end and persisting and I still think I am, and I can also see some of my manifestations showing up (they care about me, they love me, etc). I know this because my SP wouldn't have cared if I cared or not if they didn't want me to care, and why would they want me to care if they didn't? I do really regret saying that and I did apologise and tell them I didn't mean it, and they sort of accepted it? They said they didn't care, and I'm choosing to believe they do actually care and are sad about it but don't want to appear sad about it since they're stubborn.

I've been manifesting for a month now, and I saw good progress in the beginning, then had something negative happen (I reacted negatively to the 3D), then it was getting better again slowly, then we had 1 week low contact since I was on vacation and during that time, I was getting much better at living in the end but did argue with them over text. Now yesterday, we were back in contact, and it seemed pretty okay. And then today, it just seemed like they were weirdly cold. I unfortunately reacted, which I need to work on. I am definitely getting better at not caring what hapens in the 3D if that makes sense? Afterwards, I don't cry that much (maybe a bit in the moment). I do truly believe we are together in the 4D, and that it will show up in the 3D when I'm ready. I know I'm not ready right now, and I know that I won't accept this version of my SP but only my desired version.

I've been working on my self concept too, and it has improved alot in my opinion. I am worrying about what I said though. Any advice? What should I do?