I’m lonely ASF

I’m 29. Lonely asf. Got nothing going on in my life atm. Got no interest in anything. Supposed to get married but was called off before it was official because the others party’s family doesn’t like me because of my mixed race/ religion. Thats ok, happens. But personally I am not doing anything in my life to improve because I am fuckin depressed! I am surrounded by fuckin virtue signaling preachers who I detest because they suck and do not let others win! I have no sex life either. I see porn and get upset. 😠 and these horrible assholes who can’t have sex irritate me with morals and stupid stuff! I don’t even know why I am living atp. I want to do something in my life but i have no mental capacity because I don’t have the guts to say fuck off to these moralists! I wish I did! I genuinely wish I did!