Found something i shouldn't have💔

Bro honestly I'm dead inside. I can't even process what i saw like ekdum blank ho gyi thi when i saw his chats with his friends. So basically im not the type who'd stalk you or read your conversations. I understand the concept of privacy and i often told him about my opinions and views while he was like Mat bana kr itni understanding tu padha kr na chats,be thodi si toxic and all that shit in a playful manner so i thought I'll read his conversations for the first time and I'd use that in playful and chaotic manner from next time bhai par dekh ke toh ekdm cry hi aagaya ab lagra hai aisa kuch sochna hi nahi chahiye tha. Idk ab mai overthink kr rhi hu overreact kr rhi hu ya kya par wo sab baatein dimag se nahi utar rhi hai sidha dil pe laggyi like how are you even supposed to recover from this. He's out here calling me WIFE MATERIAL,PERFECT BAHU,PERFECT MOM and in other conversations with his friend woh bolrha tha "biwi matlab lifetime s3x* and disgusting chats like exchanging nudes w his friend and then replying "hybrid 10/10 pussy aisi hi baddie chahiye" objectifying women like "iske to flat hai boobies grow karne ki jarurat hai" "woahh big great boobs" like is this normal?? Is this how men talk with their friends? (Ps :- the conversations are old but not OLD enough for me to ignore) And I'm sitting here questioning everything like do men really love women ya bas ek ladki dhoondte hai jo unki saari conditions fulfil kre ghar sambhale,adjust kare,parents ke sath rhe,nice behaviour,clean smile meanwhile unke dimag me baddies ka full circus chal raha hota hai like real desires kisi alag hi duniya ne hai and relationship is just for their convience. At this point mujhe lagta hai mai bilkul bhi kaafi nahi hu like why am i not enough,why am i not that type,why am i not that baddie he was drooling over? Why does he want a traditional one for marriage but fantasies kisi aur ke sath mujhe ye double life samajh nhi aa rahi Bro I'm so heartbroken at this point mujhe itna betrayed feel ho rha hai I don't know what to do ab confront karu ya kya karu andar se mera poora trust crumble ho gaya hai, I'd never snap him again [ I'm somewhat(read : very much) insecure about my looks and he knew it par ab to mai bas ]. Everything seems fake not like everything was performative and real version of him is in those chats with his friends talking shit about Women and objectifying females out there. Is this normal?