I wish i were a girl

Almost more than I wish I were a cisgendered boy, I wish i were a cisgendered girl. Does anyone else feel this? I wish I were happy as a girl that’d be even better than just being a boy. Maybe it’s because since I started transitioning 5 years ago I’ve only ever felt ugly because I honestly am just uglier as a boy. Sometimes I question detransitioning because my life would be easier and at least Id be pretty