Is it a turnoff if a girl eats a lot?

I’m always a bit self conscious about my appetite, and with being someone who’s aspiring career values looks, I try watching what I eat. I feel like most guys have a particular preference for slim girls so it makes a lot of girls conscious of their diet. I remember my former bf was very critical about my weight and before that I had an unhealthy relationship with food that I won’t go into details about.

So I would purposely order healthy food on dates like salads, vegetables, and low carb meals. But at home? I eat like a starving teenage boy lmao. The contrast always gets me. I’m a bit of a foodie even if I don’t look like I am.