Should I drop my Online friend?

So around 6 months ago, l started texting this one girl, we’ll call her Melon. So, I started texting her because we were mutuals and I wanted to be her friend. The reason I started texting her was because she reminded me of this one girl I used to be friends with (We’ll call this girl Jelly Bean.) The reason me and Jelly Bean stopped being friends was because she dropped me, and I was very hurt by it because I got attached to her quickly, so I missed her very deeply. So, that’s the reason why I started being friends with Melon because she reminded me of Jelly Bean.

Later on, I realized that Melon was actually best friends with Jelly Bean, and I was shocked but I never told Melon anything about Jelly Bean or what she did to me. Fast forward a few months later, Jelly Bean drops Melon and I tell Melon what happened with me and Jelly Bean because I still didn’t tell Melon at that point of time. Melon already knew that I was friends with Jelly Bean because Jelly Bean told her. I tried my best to comfort Melon because Melon was very upset that Jelly Bean dropped her. At this time, I was very attached to Melon, I really admired her. I have problems with me getting attached too quickly. So after Jelly Bean drops Melon, Melon starts being friends with this girl named Vanilla (Not her real name.) I didn’t know at the time, but Melon liked Vanilla and one day, Melon texts me and she is like “The girl I like likes me back!”, and I was really upset since I was kind of interested into Melon at the time, and plus she only knew Vanilla for barely a month, so I was kind of annoyed because before Melon and Vanilla started dating, Melon would kind of pick Vanilla over me and I knew Melon longer than she knew Vanilla. I understand that I shouldn’t be jealous, but it’s so annoying whenever you try so hard for someone and they pick someone else. As well, even when they were friends, Melon would always post cute videos for Vanilla and she never would post me. She only really posted 2 videos for me and a million for Vanilla. I made videos for Melon tho, and I posted her like 5 times. I know that may not seem important, but if you can’t even post me but you can post someone you haven’t known for a long period of time, I’m obviously going to be upset.

Okay so basically after Jelly Bean dropped Melon, Melon starts being friends with Coffee (not her real name), and Coffee and Jelly Bean were BEST FRIENDS. But Jelly Bean dropped Coffee, so Melon decides to be friends with Coffee, and mind you they start texting for one day and Melon starts posting Coffee even though she knew her for one day, yet she can’t even post me? Anyways, so later on Melon and Jelly Bean start being friends again because Melon wrote her this long paragraph about how she misses her and wants to be her friend again. So they start being friends again, but Melon feels guilty because she doesn’t know how Coffee will react and that she feels bad for Coffee and “me”, but I don’t think she even felt bad for me. I think she only felt bad for Coffee and what would Coffee think.

Anyways, one day, Coffee pretended to make a fake account to talk to Jelly Bean because she really misses Jelly Bean and Coffee was posting about talking to Jelly Bean on her story. So, Melon decides to tell Jelly Bean that Coffee is texting Jelly Bean on a fake account, which is honestly kind of makes me think that Melon is telling Jelly Bean what I said about her. I don’t want Jelly Bean to have any information about me. Also, I would say specifically “DO NOT TALK ABOUT JELLY BEAN WITH ME.” And yet, Melon would still tell me about Jelly Bean, and she says “I know you don’t want to hear about Jelly Bean but…” and it is actually so annoying. Another reason why I want to drop Melon is because she is friends with Jelly Bean, and I’ve been trying to move on and forget about Jelly Bean but Melon being friends with Jelly Bean is a daily reminder of what I lost.

Back to Vanilla, so when Vanilla and Melon were dating Melon would get very jealous because Vanilla had this one friend that she would post a lot. Melon would say that Vanilla was trying to jealous bait her so Melon decided to use me to make Vanilla jealous, which I don’t really know how to feel about that, but eventually they broke up. Melon would never stop talking about Vanilla and at that time I was going through alot and I would still try my best to comfort Melon, but eventually it got tiring because it would always be about Vanilla. As well, I would tell her about my problems but I feel like she would say “ohh im so sorry” and then go back to start talking about Vanilla which is annoying, I understand I should be more understanding because she did loose her girlfriend but I just feel as if she doesn’t care about me.

Fast forward a bit, we aren’t as close and the only time she texts me is when I text first. We were matching too, but then she unmatched with me and a few days later she legit started to match with someone else, and she made a highlight for someone. Mind you, she never even made a highlight for me, which kinda upsets me. I just started ghosting her now because she wouldn’t answer me even when she was online and I was done.

Anyways, what do I do? I just feel like she doesn’t appreciate me enough, and I know she is online but I don’t really care about that. I just want to know what to do, I don’t want to drop her because I will feel bad, and I feel like I will miss her too much because im attached (though, I’m not that attached to her), but if I tell her how I feel, I feel like it will just damage our friendship. Sorry if stuff doesn’t make sense, if nothing makes sense, just tell me and I will clear it up. Just someone please give me advice, I don’t really know what im doing since this is my first time using Reddit. Thank you for reading! Please leave me advice!